OK so some who have visited my sites over the years would probably know it already but yes I have a serious mental disorder, well hey the funny thing is that well its not a joke, I really do have a mental illness. While it’s not obvious if you talk to me on the street it is there and it sure has helped me make a mess of my life. Oh well like my parents used to say when I stuffed somthing up, ”at least Im learning lessons” *eye roll*
I mean just take a look at these sites, in there current state they are just incomplete, everyone of them , some have been up since 2002 and not been changed since, while others have been completely changed every few months.
http://gameznet.org | http://gameznet.net | http://gameznet.com.au | http://gameznet.biz | http://gameznet.co.uk | http://thecashgenerator.net | http://weblicator.net | http://friendlybirds.com | and the list goes on, I have about 20 domains I think, all different ideas flooding my brain at some time where I went and started somthing got to a point and then a different idea would seem more important leading me from one thing to another.. Somtimes I get a site actually finished working and running, doing well and then in a manic moment I delete it and start again or mess it up somehow and dont know what I did. its crazy as you can see by the sites themselves.
So first of what is Bipolar Disorder?
For those that dont know or arent too sure what exactly bipolar is here is a direct link to a pdf flier from the Australian health.gov.au website http://bit.ly/cikHYL
Bipolar is an often a crippling disorder which I was first diagnosed with in 2008 after a short stay in a mental health hospital. I had suffered with anxiety, panic atacks, moments of rage, mania and derpression. Most of which I put down at the time to a combination of lifestyle factors and not dealing with lifes hardships very well.
The good thing about being diagnosed was that I now have a frame of reference to work within and a better understanding of myself as well as the drugs that really do help to keep me stable on a day to day basis.
Since being diagnosed only 2 years ago my life has still been, shall we say ”chaotic” however these days I know what to expect and I no longer go around thinking its the rest of the world that is against me, I try to work with the flow and rather than be ashamed and hide I have decided to get up and fight the problems while embrassing the positive aspects of the condition.
(manic highs really are wonderful to experience and are most often enjoyable and exciting)
In order to get myself together and to realise my dreams of supporting myself from online ventures I need to find ways to “get the jobs done” and not keep getting side tracked. I must continue to learn about bipolar, understand it, discuss it and most importantly, accept it as part of my life.
Gameznet is a bunch of websites and I hope to be able to use them to express myself in different ways. One thing that is a need in me is to find a way to express myself in regards to Being Bipolar, It is not the easiest thing to talk to others about . It rarely comes up with friends and family and I feel that In order to really accept my condition and to maybe help a few others on the way the best thing for me to do is to dedicate a website to it and blog about it here.
So this is my bipolar blog about my thoughts and experiences so it may be manic at times or depressing at others, it might ramble and get incohurant, seem like a lot of work went into it or at other times seem like no thought at all went in. There may also be times when it may contain some profanity if I decide to vent about somthing when I am at the peak of a depressive or manic cycle.
If this blog can help me express myself freely and even better help one or two fellow bipolar sufferers along the way , I will be happy.
So I do hope to get some engagement with other sufferers of bipolar and other mental illnesses and disorders like manic depression and schizophrenia and the other similar mental health conditions so we can compare notes and find out how we each deal differently with our issues. I am particulary interested to know if other bipolar sufferers are more or less in a similar position to me where it is very hard to work on just one thing, multiple projects are always going on with more and more ideas coming in all the time, bouncing from one to the next and never seeming to complete them. Having it interfere with your ability to work, not being able to stay at or hold a job for any real length of time and other stuff like that.
My website http://gameznet.org will contain a lot of information and resources for bipolar suffers and importantly a forum to discuss these topics I present and more. With a name like gameznet though of course there is free games to play as well 
If you happen to have, think you may have or know someone who is or might be Bipolar I welcome you to my blog and my website and hope that you can drop in and visit regulary for a forum chat or just to play a couple of games http://gameznet.org
I will pop back here from time to time, but hey look at my post here,
I guess it depends on activity, if its not doing nothing my bipolar mind may be to caught up on “more important ideas”
And so I may or may not be back lol
Andrew McMullen
AKA: Demonstoned
